So I want to start off by saying Iam sorry I haven't posted in awhile, when we went on vacation we got the news that my husband was deploying again 5 weeks after returning from a 2 month TDY :, ( So needless to say as soon as we got back to Shaw we had to get him ready to go again.
I once read a statement that one of my favorite authors wrote "...writing is based on feelings...". Had I wrote anything in the last few weeks, you guys would have had a multitude of feelings and most of them would make guys severely wonder what kind of woman my husband had married. I had to finally sit down and evaluate deployments and my feelings on them and let me tell you that was a gut wrenching experience.
Iam sure this is going to be a surprise to most people reading this but I hate deployments... does that mean I would change it? No I would not. I know how insane that feels, I hate the fact that my husband is gone yet again, I hate that I have to explain to my kids that daddy is at work and he won't be home for either of their birthdays, I hate that the only way I get to to see or talk to my husband is if I sit up until almost midnight and that because of the time issue my kids can't stay up to see their dad, and most of all I hate that every time I go somewhere I see people that are with their husband, and I instantly get jealous. But the pride that I feel for my husband, kids and my life, is extremely overwhelming.
At the end of the day the truth remains the same, this country did not get where it is today by sitting on our butts doing nothing. The military steps up and does things that others can not do for various reasons. Because of those two things deployments are incredibly necessary. In my personal opinion if a member of the armed services has not deployed or served their country from a location that they can not go home to the families that love them at night for more then a few months then they don't need to be promoted, no matter what your MOS (job title) it is needed of both side of the situation and to be honest our men and especially women of the armed services who choose to have a family have an entirely different stress level then those of them that have no one back home that they are responsible for and I for one would much rather have someone who know s and fully understands what is going through my husbands head handing down the orders, then to have some who has a decent amount of rank but has never been faced with the question "what would happen to my family if I don't come home?"
Maybe Iam being overly sensitive or emotional because my husband is separated again from his family but this is a life that it's members volunteered to join and if you enlisted in the military with the idea of never deploying then you enlisted for the wrong reasons. One of the things that my husband said to me before he left was "... this is what sets me apart from so many of the people we grew up with, the fact that Iam willing to go when and wherever they send me to makes me different then them..." Neither one of us like the idea that he had to leave the family again but in that statement I met a different side of my husband that I had never seen before. I married a wonderful man that is a great father and husband, at any chance he got to be with his family to took it and loved ever minute of it. After he made that statement I was introduced to the side of my husband who found it an honor to be asked to go and serve his country a man that not only stood up and said "take me" but that was excited to serve his country.
I often find myself thinking, we knew coming into the military that deployments were a (in my opinion) kind of expected thing. I mean to be honest if we met a recruiter that told us that he would never deploy we probably would have went to another branch simply because in our minds military and deployments we kind of the same word just different spelling. What was going through the minds of the individuals that have signed up and have yet to deploy. Don't get me wrong I understand family issues arise and I think it is great that the military tries to accommodate those situations but, what about the ones who don't have a family or family issues at the time and get to stay state side? I mean the day they walked into the recruiting office what was going through their mind? And you know really how do you ask someone that question? "You seem to be here for the wrong reason what was going through your mind when you were enlisting?" I won't let you guys know how that conversation goes, simply because I don't plan on hearing the repercussions of asking a service member that lol.
I miss my husband every minute of everyday and please don't misunderstand me but Iam so extremely thankful for him and the courageous men like him who despite how much they love their families, they love their country more. Iam also very thankful for the families of those service members who although they love their service member and may not like it they still respect and understand the fact that their service member loves their country more. If not for those service members we would not be the wonderful country we are today.
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